Alone

It's already 1am now as i'm typing. I can't get to sleep, and i'm feeling very bored. Not a sound ard except for the whirring of the fan beside me. The hols hv nt been too exciting for me. I'm getting bored nw. Fuck it, i dun even noe wassup with the job man. Will i get it? Got a call today, tot i got the job but turned out to be a stupid wrong number.
Btw, if u dunnoe, i am someone who thinks alot. Dun ask me wad i tink of. (nt dirty stuff u KUKU!) More of personal stuff. Anyway, i was thinking abt something. Friends. *shrugs* When i'm too free i start to think of stuff. Friends, looking at all of them ard me, sometimes i think whether which of them r true frens. I have frens. But i feel that i don't really hv a truly close fren whom i can count on. Tink i told abi or shiuan tt b4. (I dun hv any other meaning: my frens who r reading this. I'm juz saying how i feel.) Sometimes i feel whether i know them well enuff, and vice versa. I tend to keep things to myself. My heart sinks whenever i see some of my frenz closer to each other than they r to me. I feel left out. We may hang out alot, do many things 2gether. But something else seem to be missing. And i dunnoe wad it is. Shit, i betta nt say too much. Geez, then wads the use of a blog? I can't really write down my personal feelings becoz my pals may be reading them. *oops* Well, blog is a personal thing made public. Yikes, this topic is getting abit sensitive. Maybe becoz I AM SOO BORED. Going away to Msia for a couple of days next week. Hope i can try to enjoy, and not.. think so much. Ha..
And nope, I M STILL NOT SLEEPY YET. Alr 1.18am. WTH, i'll go count sheeps then.. bye...