The finals. The universities applications. My mom's consistent nagging and pressurizing. (although i know she's being helpful) My mom's cold blanket thrown at me. My i-know-for-sure-not-good-enough grades. My easily frustrated mood.

Everything seems pretty fucked up now. Plus, i haven't been going to church for more than a month.

Will He still help me now if i ask him to? Only coming to him for help and assistance in times of need. Even though i'm constantly guilty of it and asked for forgiveness but still falling back in those ways before.

All these is starting to feel like the previous time again. The next crossroad in life.

I need a miracle. And i feel like smacking all the smart people now cause i'm jealous i do not have their brains. I really do. Ferk you.