I actually lost count.

It's our 20th month today. I dont know if it's only us, but the longer you are into it, you'll gradually forget (sometimes) about the monthly anniversary. No wonder the adults go by it yearly. Or only when it reaches a tens number.

Happy 20th Month baby. All the minor and sometimes petty stuff we get pissed at each other about. But you know i still love you. ILU. =)

School has been pretty non-hatable. Doubt there's such a word but yes, that is how i'll describe it for now. As usual, i can see the workload piling up. And i'm still feeling pretty lazy. Bad management. Can't go on this way since this is my last semester. I want it to be my last semester. Graduate together with all my friends.

But despite trying to be a study freak all over again, i take the time to step back and soak in all the other stuff going on around me. Because i know after i graduate i'm gonna look back and be filled with memories. And right now while i'm still living in my future memory, let me create more memories to be kept and reminised.

I hope to meddle with some of my work before returning to school with monday blues again tomorrow. But i'm distracted by One Tree Hill. Am actually waiting for the episode to load as i'm typing this. But what's pissing me off real bad is that part B is already done loading but part A is not even 1/3 into it. WTF?

I know i've said before that one of the reasons OTH is my favourite show is because of the music in every episode. You can call me a huge music lover. I love it when i get to discover great songs when i'm watching each new episode. I've discovered two after watching an episode this afternoon. And i've put them up in my new playlist. =)

Anyway, i watched Armageddon last night again. Yes i know they've been repeating that show on tv so many bloody times. But i can say that's one really great movie. Although there might be many parts which displays scientific inaccuracies. But i dont really care about that anyway.

Watching the movie just makes me feel that Mankind is actually very, very frail. You may possess all the wealth, fame and power in this world. But in the face of the wrath of Mother Nature or other apocalypse which human beings have no control over, you're basically nothing and your life can be taken away in just a snap.

I'm actually relieved i'm only watching a movie with awesome special effects and action and that it's not reality. Because the end of the world is a very scary thing. And with so many killings, corruption and chaos going on in the world today, it makes you wonder if this is only the very beginning of something else more powerful and destructive.

I haven been going to church for quite sometime. I feel guilty. I dont want to be someone who only comes running back to God when i'm desperate or when i think i need Him. It shouldn't be the way. I dont want to be forsaken by Him when the time comes like how i might have forsaken Him.



I'm hangin' on just another day
Just to see what you will throw my way