I just had a very scary feeling and thought.

And the feeling sank in so much into me that i stopped what i was doing and stoned with an extremely heavy heart.

My mind was blank for some moments.

When i grow old next time and look back into my life, will i be happy with how i've lived it?

And what will happen after i die? After i leave this human world. Am i afraid of death? I dont know. We're definitely gonna die someday. And be in Heaven hopefully. I have a religion and i know where i'll be after i die. But will i be turned away from the Gates of Heaven if i haven't been a good Christian?

Nothing religious but it just scares me to think about the other world. Death itself is known. But life after death is unknown. Because it's so unknown, it scares me. Alot.

Where will we be after death? Will everything around us become silent? Like in outer space? After i die, will i still have thoughts and feelings? Will i just be like a spirit and watching over my loved ones on earth. Will i miss everyone and everything i had once when i was living? Will i feel pain? Will i feel sad? Will i feel lonely?

Somehow, the future scares me. We dont know what's installed for us until we've come to experience it.

Having this thought makes me wanna spend more time with my family, loved ones and friends.


I entertain strange thoughts and feelings every once in awhile. You may not understand it. But i just had to talk about this. And it makes me feel much better now.