Yesterday was town out with the girls again.

But i heard something from one of my friends that really angered and upset me.

She told us the problems. Again. And i couldn't help but feel really really angered by how you could let that someone else, who obviously dont care, do those things to you. At that moment, many dangerous thoughts of what i felt like doing to that jerk crossed my mind. You know, jerk isn't even enough a word to describe that bastard. Fuck him.

You could still laugh at some point when you told us about the incident. Were you trying to lighten up the atmosphere? I didn't even felt like smiling. Because i was really mad hearing the stuff you said.

This isn't the first problem between you and him. And i'm sure it's not going to be the last if you continue to not wanna let go of him. Countless problems between you and him. Why still hanging on to everything? So much amount of tears you cried over it. So much time wasted. So much energy lost. Why can't you see that he just ain't worth it AT ALL?

It's frustrating to see my friend always upset over his matters. I know you are frustrated and sick of it too. I know you've tried giving up for a very long time. It's hard, and it hurts, you say. But maybe it's the fact that you are not trying hard enough.

I wish you could step outside your life for a moment to see and feel everything we outsiders feel as we look at what's happening to you. You said even your other friends got mad when you told them about the stuff he did. I'm sure if you could feel what we feel, you could leave him with no sadness and regrets.

How can you still habour thoughts of wishing to be with him after all that he's done to you? How can you say you still have strong feelings for a guy who has hurt you a million more times than he has made you happy? This ISN'T love. How can you still like a guy who turned youe life upside down, caused you so much hurt and tears, caused distress to your family and i dare say, don't care about your feelings. The family incident was fucking disrespectful. I would have trashed it out with anyone who dares do anything with my family.

WHO THE HELL/FUCK/SHIT/HECK DOES HE THINK HE IS??? I swear i really feel like whacking the shit out of him with a baseball bat or something.

How can you let a fucking someone like him treat you this way when from the very start, HE ISN'T EVEN YOUR FREAKING BOYFRIEND!!!

Why? Why? Why?

Maybe you still trust his words again after every single time you guys fought, and he tells you how important you are to him. I can't believe how you can still trust him despite the countless number of times he lied to you in one way or another.

He says he cares and you're important. But is this how to fucking treat someone whom you care for and important to you? Perhaps this is just another lie of his. And it's the biggest lie of all.

I'm saying all these because i care as a friend. I really wanna see you happy again. Happy from the bottom of your heart. Forget him. Don't keep saying it's hard to let go. You know, things can be done if you put your whole heart into it.

Stop letting him climb all over your head. I hate it when girls are so weak and vulnerable when it comes to affairs of the heart. And what's more, the girl is my friend. Don't say i'm blabbering all these because i've never gotten my heart broken before. Because I KNOW i won't let myself be reduced to such a depressed state if that ever happens to me someday.

You allow that jerk to control your life in such a way you can hardly breathe. It's not the end of life without him. In fact, i think it's the 'beginning' of life.

I'm not gonna care about your problems with him anymore. Because i'm sick of it and i know i'll get angry when i hear about them. Maybe you think that i've never even cared that much anyway. You can just take all these all my two cents worth. And you can go pour out your woes to your other friends instead.

But let me tell you, they're gonna get sick of it also. Because everyone's been telling you what to do but you're not listening. You can go on having that bastard in your life.

I hope you'll stop being wishy washy with your feelings. Be firm. Alarm bells have rung a long time ago that you should get this guy out of your life and forget him.

I look forward to the day when you've totally stepped out of everything. And you look back at all the shit that happened, and say what a foolish, foolish girl you had been.