Everytime i think to myself i wanna blog, i come to this page to type, i stare at it for sometime, and i change my mind in the end.
It's either i dont know what to write and i'm just blogging for the sake of doing so. Or i'm having too many other distractions at the same time, and i decide that i'll just do other stuff and blog again another time.
It's Monday again tomorrow. I finish classes at one. And i'm thinking if i should go shopping for some stuff on my own. I've not really tried shopping on my own before. I'll need at least one companion. But i'm sorta desperate to get those stuff and none of my friends whom i asked are free. So i guess i'll just have to make do alone.
Or maybe i'll just forgo that idea and come home straight after school.
It's been almost a year. But everyday, i still cry out inside that i dislike my course. I've pretty much gotten used to what i'm studying, but at the same time, i keep wishing that if only i was studying something else. I never thought i'll be studying what i'm studying now. But yeah, i guess it's also my fault that i didn't study hard enough in the past to get into some other courses i wanted. That's what my mom always says.
The stuff i'm studying now. I dont even have interest in it. Computer programming, telecommuncation systems. What the fuck? Computer programming. This damn shit is killing me. And the other day for TLS practical we had to try out out something with some stupid circuit boards stuff. I practically stoned. It's so not me. I should be in retail or something!!
My recent term tests. I just barely passed everything. I guess i'm okay with it as long as i pass because i know how i fare in those subjects. But seeing how well my friends are doing, just passing is not good enough. And just barely passing everything would pull down the GPA grade, and in return it will reduce your chances of getting into a university after graduation.
I already have friends who left the course and quitted school. I wont do that for definite. I'll hang in there. And so do all the constant negative thoughts.
I'm also sick of lamenting how much i dont have interest in this course of mine. Sick of hearing people just telling me to suck it up and continue with the remaining two years. Yeah, suck it up. That's sounds great. Arent you sick of reading how sick i am of my course too? Yes, you are.
Yay, I love my course.
Meeting with the four girls yesterday was good. We should all do it again. =)
Sometimes, i wish i could read minds.
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