Just came home not long ago from watching Tokyo Drift. Seriously, i have no idea why some of my friends say that the show wasn't nice. Maybe it's a matter of preference. Because overall, i thought the show was quite okay. In fact, i liked it. The car drifting scenes rocked. Plus the many other stuff that made me think that the show is nice.

I have to go to Japan one day, i swear. Not because of this show, duh.

And if there is such thing as a next life, i would wanna be a Japanese.

Alrights. A look at my MSN window shows that only 4 of my classmates are online now. Normally, it would have been much more than that. I think they're all probably mugging for the exams next week. Unlike me. I'm still a little in the 'bo chap' mood. Well, i started studying a little. But i know i have to buck up real quickly. I dont wanna fucking fail and have to retake the same shit all over again. I am really afraid at the thought of having to do so. I am praying hard i dont fail any subject this semester.

Right now, i just wanna be able to pass. It doesnt really matter if i do not pass it with flying colours. Afterall, i know myself. I'm not someone who always get good grades. My grades are always average. So, i really hope that i would be able to do my best for these coming exams.

I have to ask my parents soon again about my trip to HK in Sept. Because Stella has to do the booking soon. Actually, deep in my heart, i already know what their answer will be. But you know, im hoping for what you will call a miracle. I'm really praying my parents will soften up and let me go. It's just really sick and tired everytime that i'll end up quarrelling like hell with my mom over this. And i'll crying almost everytime after that. It's so tiring. Also, i dont wanna ask now as it will definitely affect my mood to study for my exams. But Stella is pressing me for a definite answer soon. So tell me, what the fuck am i suppose to do?

Recently, i get easily irritated by my mom over the slightest comment she makes at me. She'll then continue with all the nagging which i absolutely cannot stand. And she also says things which she doesnt even know the total truth about. What can i do? I cant possibly tell her to shut the fuck up. Also, it's not just her nagging that makes me mad. Sometimes, it's her mindset which angers me. I feel that she still treats me as a small kid or something. Damn it, i'm 18. In my mind, there's actually alot things i wish to do. But that thought is crushed and broken into smithereens just becoz of her one disapproval. Her best reason? "You think you're grown up already ah? Wake up. You're only 18."

Ya. Every fucking thing i wanna do i have to wait until when? 21? 21 means adult? 18 is still a small kid. I'm 18 and i still cant go get my driving licence even though i'm already legal to. 18 and i still cant stay out overnight once in awhile with my friends. 18 and i cant go overseas for a few days with my friends. 18 and i've never even taken a plane my whole life!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK? Doesnt she understand there's always a first time for everything? She cant stop me from doing everything just because she's worried about me. I dont wanna hear crap like it's for my own good. You know, i'm feeling so angry that i'm crying as im typing this.

Sometimes i just wanna tell fuck you to my mom straight in her face. But i dont wanna go to hell for it. I'm not blogging about my mom this way to let u think what an evil witch she is. She's a great mom. She's my mom. I love her. I am suppose to love her. But i feel like sometimes i hate her more than i love her. I'm just so sick of this....... everything.....

I want a break from this.... Soon.