怎麽那麽可愛啊。。 *狂哭中。。因爲擁有不了他。 哇哈哈。*


I'm sitting here typing with 5 plaits in my hair. Thanks to my sis. Glad no one is here to see this.

I guess you guys know that i have been wanting to go to TW and HK. I really really want to go to these 2 places very much. But my mom just dont seem to realize how much. Almost everytime when i try to talk to her about this issue, i'll most probably end up crying. It's inevitable. Because i just dont understand why she doesn't allow me to go. I hate it when she just wave me off everytime i ask her abt it. I hate it when she even makes empty promises about allowing me to go sometimes. I detest it even more when she tells me to quit dreaming. I'm discussing seriously with her and she tells me to stop dreaming. It's like a jab in the heart. This aint no dream to me!!

Like the other day, i was talking to my dad about learning to drive. At least my dad isnt like my mom. Den my mom went like ' You so rich ah, learn driving.' I told her i might be going to learn with my friend the next month. And she just shoot a 'You like to dream alot hor?' I swear all of my blood rushed to my head at that time. I replied coldly that she was being a dream crusher then. My dad sensed the tension and tried to wave everything off with an 'Aiyahh.....'.

Sometimes i'm really pissed with my mom over this. She wants me to wait till 21 before going to my whatever TW and HK. I mean, i'm having the urge to go now. How am i suppose to keep the urge till 3 yrs later? I'll confess something. I've never taken a plane before. *sighs* The other time i was arguing with my mom. I told her up front that i'm already 18 and have never even sat on a plane before. How sia suay is that. And she just kept quiet.

I know it's foolish to aruge with my mom over this. But why can't she just understand my feelings? I know she's worried about my safety and all. But im already 18. Im no longer a little girl who needs supervision all the time. I will be going into adulthood in a couple of years time. Can't she just relent, for once? Just once..

It's not just about going to TW or HK that im kicking such a big fuss. I just want my mom to let me do something she's nv allowed me to do before for once. Example, travel overseas.

I want to travel. I want to see the world out there. The world is so huge. I think a whole lifetime is not even enough to thoroughly explore the whole world. I dont wanna be stuck in SG all my life, when there is such a vast world out there waiting for me to experience. But wait, right now my mom is right in the middle of my path, preventing me from going any further.

I think maybe it's the Asian culture where parents are not as broadminded as those in American countries. Just compare, and you'll see the obvious difference.

Sometimes, i wonder if i'll be able to accomplish my so called 'dreams', as quoted by my mom. Because i really, really want to go TW and HK now. By this year. I'm really feeling so sorry towards my friends who has to wait me to go.

Sigh.. havent blog this long for sometime. I just hope somehow, things might change. Slowly.. soon.