Finally, a day of break from work tmr. Gonna stay home and slack. My job's totally tiring. The 8 and a half hours of standing really took a toll on my legs. And sometimes, things can get really bored around the shop. My eyes can get teary from all the constant yawning.

I fucking hate doing entrance. Boring. You have to greet costumers coming in and going out. Constant smiling. I hardly do stuff like that you know. It's just not me. And i always get to see the 'first hand reactions' from some costumers on the reindeer thingy we have to wear on our heads. Some of them just suck.

I dont like one of my supervisors. This Malay guy. I think he kinda buay song me for no reason. The look from his eyes everytime. Though it's not always so obvious, but i can fugging tell there's something. Whatever lah. Fuck him. I just wanna do my own stuff and get the cash.

Intending to work till maybe about near end Dec. Will quit with one of my colleagues. I'm also not if i'm able to tahan until then not. Arghh. It's damn tired lah. I even missed watching my Yu Le Bai Fen Bai for 2 days because i was too sleepy. I always stayed up no matter how late and sleepy i was ok.

I think i'm getting weirdly emotional quite easily due the the slight stress from this job. It's weird. I don't know how to explain it. Like when i see some MTVs played on the screen that is kinda sad, i immediately felt like crying. And when i see a mother and daughter shopping together, i feel like crying too because at then, i really like doing the same thing with my mom. And whenever the job gets a little tough, i think of my family and i felt like crying already. It's like tears were gathering in my eyes already and i was getting goosebumps. Of course i fought hard to stop the tears by thinking of something else if not other people would think i'm nuts. Crying when working. I'm so damn weird right? I also don't understand any of these.

Haiyoh. I think i'm not cut out for working man. Wonder my future how.

The only one thing i think i gained from the job is getting to know more nice songs from the MTVs they played in the shop and then downloading them when i get home. Haha.

Sighh. But as the days passed, things are getting better on the job. But i still hope something more fun will... happen soon. From what i hope is.. hidden..



See it in a boy's eyes


Well it rains, when it rains
Oh my heart don't feel the same
There's a sun in my sky
You don't see it, you don't even try
But you'll die, before you cry
Solitude is where you fly
You don't say this ain't right
But I see it in your eyes


What's a girl like me to do
When she don't get a thing from you
I wanna know where you're going to
Have to do what you have to do
What's a girl supposed to try
When all you do is criticise
Pretty soon you'll realise
I can see it, I can see it in a boy's eyes
See it in a boy's, see it in a boy's eyes...

What's a girl like me to do
When she don't get a thing from you
I wanna know where you're going to
Have to do what you have to do
What's a girl supposed to say
Just turn around and walk away
Pretty soon you'll realise
I can see it
I can see it in a boy's eyes see it in a boy's, see it in a boy's eyes....